To YOU..
For the first time after 5 months, 4 days, 17 hours and 12 minutes of shoving everything away that reminded me of you, I got hold of the song that binded me to you in the most unexplainable way. I was not hesitant to listen to it because I thought that it won’t mean anything to me anymore, after all, it feels like a long time has passed but it did otherwise. Now I regret being so arrogant, I thought I was stronger than this. I’ve managed to survive the fall that kept me curled up until now. I thought you’re just someone in my past now. I thought I won’t feel anything for you anymore. I thought I was over about everything. Silly me, those were just thoughts. Why the hell did I even bother to try and to prove to myself that you mean nothing to me? I wish I can’t remember. I wish to just forget.. and I wish it was that easy.
— R
